It doesn’t get any easier over time at my job even though I have worked as an ICU nurse for 12 years.
I used to come home crying everyday after my shift when I first started at the hospital. I figured that over time I would get used to the pain. No matter how hard I tried, I found myself creating an emotional connection that affected me horribly. For some reason I continue to work there still after all these years. I’ve become oddly obsessed with making sure all the patients are comfortable with the temperature and air quality. I have realized over time that several patients would suffer or feel worse than they needed to because the temperature on the floor was either too hot or too humid to handle. I convinced our floor manager to have a dehumidifier installed! After the humidity dissipated, I still realized that the air felt dusty, so I asked if they could install a media air cleaner. I was so shocked to see how most of the patients improved once they were breathing in higher quality air. I really feel strongly that out of all the units in the hospitals, the ICU should be the one to have the highest air quality. After all, the patients there are really suffering and sensitive to pollutants. So, having a standard HEPA filter is crucial for their health and safety. After seeing such a dramatic difference in the patients, I convinced the hospital administration to upgrade all of the air filters in the hospital in all units. I think that I can be a tad controlling and demanding in some situations, but I really do care alot about the patients, and I want them to have a comfortable experience should this be their last days here.