I have worked as an ICU nurse for many years.
Even though I have been here almost a decade, it absolutely doesn’t get easier overtime.
I even used to come home crying after almost every shift when I first started at the hospital. I figured that over time I would get used to the pain. Unfortunately, no matter how much I tried, I found myself creating an emotional connection that affected me greatly. For some reason I continue to work there. I’ve become oddly obsessed with making sure all the patients are comfortable with the temperature and air quality. I learned over time that many patients would suffer or start feeling worse than they needed to because the temperature on the floor was either too hot or too humid. I convinced our floor supervisor to have a dehumidifier installed. After the humidity dissipated, I still realized that the air felt dusty, so I asked if they could install an air cleaner. I was so shocked to see how many of the patients improved once they were breathing in higher quality air. In my opinion, I think that out of all the units in the hospitals, the ICU should be the one to have the highest air quality. The patients there are entirely suffering and sensitive to pollutants, so having HEPA air filters is pressing for their health and safety. After seeing such a dramatic difference in the patients, I convinced the hospital administration to replace all of the air filters in the hospital. I suppose sometimes I can be a bit controlling over some things, although I entirely do care about the patients, and I want them to have a comfortable experience since they may be spending their last days here.